The fear of starting something new crawls into one and all. Will I be able to accomplish it? What if I fail? What will people think about me? All these doubts exist. The fear of attending the first exam, the fear of cooking for the first time, the fear of being independent leaving all your family behind for the first time, the fear of falling in love for the first time, the fear of learning a new sport or activity for the first time. You are not alone in this. Everyone goes through this at different stage of life.

“You can remember the second and the third and the fourth time, but there’s no time like the first. It’s always there – Lauren Bacall”

Being Judged

The very first thing that hit me when I started my blog was “being judged”. I was just assuming, I am a newbie to this thing, there are already lots of people doing this. What if I make a mistake, what if my writing is not up to the standard. I had lots of insecurities occupying my mind. The only thing was, I had an interest in writing, I wanted to pour my thoughts which could reach lots of people. I wanna share with them what I learned, what I know, how things changed me. That was the only thing that drove me to proceed despite all the fear which was chasing me.

Being judged is not our mistake. If we don’t try, if we don’t work on our skills, the one who judges us is not gonna lose anything. It is us who will suffer a setback in life. When you overcome the fear of being judged and work on your creativity who knows one day you might be in the position to judge them back. I mean your work speaks for yourself. I don’t believe in judging people or being judged. Work hard for yourself, be your best critic and rest happens naturally. No one can judge you better than yourself. The truth is, everyone is busy with their problems. They don’t have time to look and comment on yours. So just chill, relax and keep worrying about how you are gonna accomplish it.

At various stages of our lifetime, life throws different challenges at us. Everything has a beginning, everything has a new start. Though you are pushed by someone or it is your interest to do something new, it’s always exciting, scary, can make you anxious. But once you taste the ripe fruit out of that, then you will realize how much you have missed them by not doing it before.

Beauty in Trying out new Things

After overcoming the fear, deciding not to pay heed to judgments, I decided to create a blog. I was unaware of where to start, how to start. The only thing I knew was I had an interest in writing. I was scared to death thinking am I a good writer? I had no prior experience in writing but still, I was motivated and interested to start a blog. Then I googled lots of stuff, watched lots of videos, and created my new blog. I learned a lot of things in this new process. Every single thing I surfed myself. Even though if I learn a small thing from the web and implemented it in my blog, I was super happy and was very proud of myself. I knew my creativity was expanding, I was engrossed, I had a purpose. I realized I loved doing a lot of other stuff like designing, editing images, learning new photography applications.

The day came when I published my first blog post. Before hitting the “Publish” button my adrenaline was gushing, I had this wonderful feeling that I have done something really big. I was rereading my post again and again, again and again. I have mentioned “again” so much time to stress, imagine how much time I would have reread it:) Finally, I hit the publish button. Finally, my writing was public, people are gonna read it in a while, I will be bombarded with lots of comments is what was running in my head. But the feeling of accomplishing it made me feel elated, excited, was super proud of myself. I worked for weeks, learned tons of things, the knowledge, and experience that I gained in a few weeks was immense. I was self-indulged, the excitement of learning new things, trying them out for the first time was exhilarating. It can never be bought again. Though the fear was there the silly excitement, butterflies in my stomach, the tinge of seeing the success, the hope of completing the work overshadowed my fear.

The Feeling of Accomplishment

I didn’t bother what people are gonna comment. I had attempted where lots of people lose it. I was determined to do it and I accomplished it. The fear of attempting has been replaced with happiness, I received appreciation, suggestions, bewilderment, and all sorts of emotions from different people. I was happy with all those appreciations and suggestions. I was not dejected when people didn’t appreciate my post. I believe learning is a process. Still, I am learning. Until today I have learned plentiful of things and improved myself. I started somewhere, that is what matters.

Today my interest in writing has turned into a passion. I have figured out a career for myself in writing. I didn’t know then I can be a writer but today my writing has become my profession. We will not know until we start but once I started, I figured where I have to reach. I am still hunting out. So come out of your cocoon, don’t be scared to try out things, If you have no vision it’s fine. No one knows where we are gonna end up but starting somewhere will lead your path and you will figure it out eventually. Remember doing something for the first time can never be experienced again.

xoxo,

Mita