I turned 30 years old this year. I questioned myself how does it feel to be turning 30??? Happy? Sad? Confused? A few years before when the thought of turning 30 crossed me, I would feel old, unfashionable, lazy, no more makeup, no more fun. The most important thing is, children, call me aunty. I assumed as life was dooming down.

Turing 30 is when you’re old enough to know better, but still young enough not to care – unknown

I have become a better person

The old me would shy away when there were a group of people talking. When I was forced to join my relatives, I would just smile and nod my head, with no idea what are they talking about.

But today I invite people to our house, enjoy good food, and have a heart full conversation. I have made lots of good friends as a family in these years. I have learnt how to maintain a good relationship with people.

Now I can make interesting conversations out of nothing and I have the patience to listen to any mokka (boring) conversation 😂 most important, I can speak confidently when a group of people are gathered even when I have no idea about the conversation going on.

I have learnt how to convey my opinion politely. During my teens, when I get angry, I just blurt out. But now I take a minute and think about what has caused my anger, what am I supposed to respond to? I choose my words carefully so the other person is not offended. Contrarily, In today’s situation that doesn’t apply to me because being a new mom postpartum has hit me. If suppose my husband is reading my post, he would blink that “I don’t see my wife choosing her words carefully”. Sadly he is the victim of my pregnancy postpartum😀 anyways that’s another big topic to talk about.

My attitude has changed

I was a people pleaser. I can never say no. I always liked to be in good books in one’s life. Still, I am a people pleaser but only to people I value. When I decide on something, I always look for approval from someone. Now I am kind of starting to trust my decisions.

I have become more ambitious in my career. I no more take life very serious, I don’t judge people, before concluding, I stand in their shoes and realize, how would I have reacted. If people judge me I no more bother. I have become responsible from being a couch potato.

I have become better version of myself

I have a weird habit such, as whenever I read a book or watch a movie, I get inspired by a character then I try to change my characteristics as that fictional character so my life will be as beautiful as depicted in the book. Unfortunately, I couldn’t be someone else even for a day. If I think now, I realize how funny I have been.

Today, the same books have made me a better version of myself. Self-help books taught me to take life easy. I used to be obsessed with everything, but now I learnt to wait for things else I come to peace with the fact it was not meant for me.

Rather than obsessing, I have learnt to accept it. If something can’t be changed, it can never be changed. Instead of obsessing over it, I began to accept it. It is a game changer once you start to accept things which couldn’t be changed.

I have understood to take careful decisions rather than taking hasty decisions at the moment. I have learnt to move away from negative people rather than torment them.

Now, when I think turning 30 isn’t as fearful as I imagined. Have no regrets about being old, instead, I enjoy the youth of 30 until I turn 60. I don’t shy away when kids call me aunty, instead, I enjoy my kid calling me mom, I didn’t feel bad for not being fashionable, instead, I dressed comfortable and carried the best version of myself.

When I look back I see I have collected lots of memories. If I would have decided to publish a blog post “how do I feel turning 20?” I would have had nothing to write about. The 30 years of experience have moulded me into who I am today. There were good moments then, had bittersweet moments as well, happy days and hard days too passed.

On this birthday I recollected 30 years of my life. I am proud of myself. Where I have come from to this human today. Age is not the only thing that has increased, I have turned over a new leaf myself.

Every stage of life has to be experienced at the right time and at the right age. Being in your teens is not the only happiness. Being a mom can never be enjoyed in your teens, Being successful in your carrier can never be tasted in your teens. At the same, the excitement to wear a new dress on your birthday, whether the cute boy is gonna look at you or your friend, the first love can never be enjoyed in your 30s.

Rather than whining that you are 30 years old. Just sip a hot cup of coffee and reminisce about your beautiful teen years and I am damn sure you will bear tears in your eyes.

Xoxo,

Madhu